Early

Have you ever told a story about yourself or life and sometimes the story sounds so unreal that you almost feel like you aren't talking about yourself or your own life??

Everytime I talk about Olivia being Premature that's how I feel. It just feels so UNREAL that I already had her. This week I would have been 33 weeks pregnant. Instead I have a 7 week old 3lbs 8oz premature infant living in a incubator in the NICU. It's just SO crazy to me!! I can't believe she came EARLY at 26 weeks!!!

We have wipe off boards in our offices and when I came back to work my boss put this up in my office:

I haven't taken it down bc I love that I am a "mama" but still don't feel like one since Olivia isn't home yet. It is a nice reminder. I work for a staffing service where I am a staffing consultant. Everyday I conduct interviews and meet new people. Whenever they see the sign up in my office the conversation always comes up. I then have to tell them that Olivia was born 3.5 months early, that when she was born she was 1lb 7oz, etc. Today as I was telling the story I stopped myself in the middle. I have told the story so many times that it has stopped feeling real, it feels like I am telling a story about someone else. I know, weird...

As unreal as it feels, it also feels R E A L. When I go and visit little Olivia my heart races with excitement, my face lights up and I smile from ear to ear. I just love that little girl SO much!!!